"Life is an adventure. Invite constant adventures and whenever a call comes from the unknown, listen to it. Risk all and go into the unknown, because this is the only way to live at the maximum."
Emptiness, some plans mixing with relaxing state of mind. I don't complain. Im glad that I can be here, can see, feel and hear. Its very cold today, windy and really grey but nevertheless I trust and I take what's given to me. I don't know what to think but I let myself not to think. I take it as it is. Im wondering if I'll find myself in this state of mind. But why do I need to know this for? Everything can change in one second so I just let myself be.
I discover new places, new culture, new state. Up or down, there is always someone. Im not alone here. That makes me feel better, calm and safe.
It looks like some kind of test for me. Can I live another way than I used to live before? Not to run all day long, not to work 12hrs a day, not to rush and take as much job as it's possible? Maybe I need to learn take everything easier with no pressure as it was before...? Lets wait and see.
I think I appeared in this place with some reasons. I'm here to learn something. Relax is difficult for me. I don't actually know how could I relax without thinking about my plans or job or future or past or... everything else. I think I should have some more moments when I take life easier. Last few weeks I had an opportunity to stop for a while and go through my life. I realised I do many thing fast. I couldn't see that before. I though that's the way I am, but now I know it was wrong way of thinking. It's not the way I am. That was the way I ran away. From where and where? Don't know yet. But this place helped me to stop and let me to think about that.
Boy is laying on the floor in the living room third hour. He talk to us from time to time, changing positions, singing with us and doing - nothing, just relaxing, enjoying time here and now. Could I do that? Could you do that? Maybe that's why I'm here? To learn something I don't know. No pressure at anything. I will let myself work a bit and relax between. Just be HERE AND NOW.
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It's very quiet before the storm. Silence at night. Even when I'm getting up in the morning it's still quiet. Sometimes I'm wondering if I'm in the city or maybe somewhere in space. I hear my heart, my breath, my body. I am so in here! Whatever I do right now I enjoy it! This is the street I live. Not much happen here. Even my phone reception is hardly reached.
Could I live in this place? I'm not sure. Maybe when I get older and I would have nothing to do anymore. Haha :D Could that ever happen? Probably not but definitely I would like to live in much warmer part of the world than this. They saying you can have four seasons in one day here. I didn't discover that yet. I experience only three until now :) I think I couldn't fulfill myself here. My passion requires bigger market. But this is the place I definitely could come back shoot fashion. This is beautiful land which you could discover all over again.
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